Lilandrael is resigning.

[Lilandrael]

I'm sad to say it, but I am going to be leaving the Dark Templars as a Kinship and a Clan. Don't worry, I am not going to be joining any rival Kinships, or spread a load of false rumours about the DTs because I'm simply not that kind of person.

I'm leaving for a number of reasons, one of them being that I don't know for how much longer I can play LOTRO, due to me having no income anymore. Once my 3 month subscription is ended, I don't know what will happen. It could be that I wont be able to play for months on end.

Another reason is that I'm just not happy in DT anymore. Don't get me wrong, every single one of you is fantastic and I am more grateful than you can possibly imagine for meeting you all and sharing in some of the awesome times we've had. I'm just starting to feel a bit preassurised. It's difficult to explain, but to sum it up I guess I just want to go out there and do my own thing as a solo player. I'm less and less inclined to go and do raids etc now, and the rift isn't interesting me so much and by not going and not showing up, I'm letting you guys down. For that sort of thing you need a steady player, and I can be a bit sporadic some times.

I hope you can all understand why I'm doing this, and I hope I won't be blacklisted or banned from fellowshipping with you guys, because I hope that we can still be good friends. It's just its starting to feel less like a game for me and more a chore, and thats not what I want. So I'm going to go it alone ^^ and be a proper wandering bard

I will still always be around to help out with absolutely anything while I'm still able to play. Please don't hate me for my decision. I love you all.

[jibjab]

First Lil, i will never hate you, you will allways have a place in my heart. This is your decision, and I respect that. Sure hope to see you ingame sweetie. Good luck out there

Love

JibJab

[Demonjay]

i cant respond right now... im out of words

[kaldron]

sorry to her that you have gone sweet you will be missed by me and others i lost my rift drinking partner to be honest i was thinking about going it alone as well im not on as much as i was came so close to quiting the other night wont bore you with why lets say was not in very good mood needed to sit down and think about it if i do disapear it will only be till mines off moria is out lov ya lots aubs

[Demonjay]

wel lil if hanging out with us is like a chore and your not having fun with us by all means leave but its not you being not happy or the finances you wanted to start your own kin... with casual roleplaying players.. we not casual? i can be casual let me get my xxl t-shirt and sweat pants and roleplaying give me 20 beer and i can act like gollum lol wel im not that mad but i am disapointed in you at least have the curtesy and respect to w8 till im back and have things running again,cant expect that from

[Demonjay]

certain people..,and you start about aliance with me hehe you have big plans for someone who saying that your finances run out and hanging out with us is a chore and no fun...,wel lil i would like to thank you for your outstanding work and .. dedication you had , gl with your kin
ps.if i was a bit hars in this posts i apolizise i tend to say what i feel and dont like beating around the bush and im a little stressed because im not online and the kin is not strifing atm

[Lilandrael]

I understand where you are coming from Demon. I only decided that I would like to make a casual Kinship after I left DT, and thought it only right that I told you. Yes I do have financial problems - that is why it is only a casual kinship, people can come and go as they like because I wont be around 24/7 - if it folds, it folds. It's just an experiment. It isn't going to be anything serious just a bit of fun.

I'm sorry if you see it as a lack of respect on my part, it certainly wasn't intentional and yes I guess I should have stayed until you were back online, so I hold my hands up to that and admit that I was wrong in that sense.

I dont regret being with DT one bit. I learned a lot and that knowledge will stay with me for a long time. I just hope we can all remain friends and remember the fact that LOTRO is a game and friendship is more important.

[Demonjay]

damnit lil ... why do you have to leave thought you would stick with us in good times AND bad times i just grew found of you and saw you staying with us a long time to come as our Templaress.. im just sad and you leaving and saying hanging with us is a chore and no fun anymore hurt and made a other crack in my heart...i will miss you and wish you the best
goodbye lil x

ps.im going back at being angry now about everything

[Lilandrael]

I'm sorry demon. I'm guessing there is nothing that I can say that will stop you from being angry. It wasn't hanging with you guys that felt like a chore. That's not what I meant at all. You are all great people and spending time with you all was so much fun.

I feel terrible enough for leaving as it is, because I feel like I have let you down. Gaming shouldn't be about that! I shouldnt have to feel bad for wanting to go and do my own thing and explore a different aspect of the game.

I'm not going to get into an argument or start name calling. That's childish and I wouldn't do that anyway. I just want you to understand my reasons for leaving, without thinking I'm some Evil Hell b*tch >< And you know that I will always be there for DT whether I have my own kin or not!